Life has always moved at a pace that races. It is hard to feel like I am caught up or at the same speed as time. There is always an endless to-do list, projects that need completing, and chores that need tending. Lately, I have been a in a migraine fog. I can't seem to get things done because I am trying to enjoy life without my head aching, an eye hurting, nausea, and just feeling like life is happening without me. Those few moments for me are harder to come by these days. My little one deserves a mommy who does not having to pass him to daddy because she can't hold him or hear his little noises. I know he can sense when things are not right with me. Living life with migraines (or any chronic illness) makes life feel like it is passing me. I want to press pause while I am having an attack so I don't miss any moment.
As I struggle to find a balance with motherhood, work, marriage, friendships, family relationships, and faith I am reminded that I don't have to do it all. I can take time to relish in my Savior's comfort. During those foggy moments or hours or days, I can take refuge in a God who truly loves me. Migraines are an inconvenience in this life and a big pain. There are a lot of other inconveniences and pains that are much worse, so for today, I am taking refuge and praying for healing, strength and comfort during the fog. Cover me, I am taking refuge under Your wings.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalm 91:4
